If we could turn back time

I was talking to my guy just now and one interesting topic came out. If given the chance, what would we alter during our 2 years of stay in Wellington? The list is as follows:

Him:
1) Kumpul duit banyak banyak

2) Travel more

3) Improve his grades

4) Walk along Oriental Bay more often

5) Layan cik Nisya clubbing sekali sekala

6) Get to know more people

Mine:

1) Learn pole dancing and finish the whole course

2) Amik "Barang" with him just to nengok how bad/cute we can go "weng"..

3)Buat rambut dread lock

4) Walk around Oriental Bay more often

5) Buy more dresses

6) Finish my yoga classes


In conclusion, both us seem to agree that it will be a bad idea to be an item when we were there.
As for me, I regretted that he did not save as much there. Of course he wished i took pole dancing class and finish the god damn syllabus.. "personal development" katanya..

Stupid stories I wrote

Reminiscing on my non-existent writing skills, it occured to me how stupid and foolish all the stories that i wrote, especially during examinations. I was even foolish enough to write a very sexist essay for a scholarship interview!! (still blaming the essay). Here are some of those that I managed to remember:

A) SPM english trial paper
I wrote an essay on a girl. A very bitchy one. A boy from school was expelled because she accussed him of trying to rape her. The boy left and became a drug addict. He died out of it. He was her fan, actually.

I failed this paper, I didnt bother to complete the rest of the paper. It was a six page essay. Janji puas hati..

B) Petronas Interview
"We should create more female engineers who are capable to compete with male engineers". One of the lines that I wrote. Bodoh kan????? Ingat nak masuk parti feminist ke ape???

C) Delf A3 french exam
" I plan to have 1000 kids when i grow up and I want to become a teacher" (translation). I cant remember how to write 10 in french. I was a bit ambitious kan? Blame it on the 16 year old hormone fluctuations.

d) New pants, please
I wrote an essay during social studies class on how much i wanted to buy a pair of jeans. But mom didnt allow, saying that the family can use the money for something else. (Bersamamu style, please) I was called by my social studies lecturer. I had a lecture on how to spend wisely..instead of a new jeans..What was I thinking?

Ade lagi..still cant remember..will add new ones if remember..:)

12

Once there were two bestfriends; a boy and a girl. Both were equally good looking.(not so important point). The boy used to tease the girl because of her braces while the girl used to tease the boy because of his Hawaiian shirt that he wore during their first meeting. They became good friends and they often called each other during school holidays. The girl was in JB and the boy was in Perak. After SPM, the boy was in KMB and the girl was in IPBA. One chose to become a doctor. Another chose to become a teacher. One was sent to Dublin, the other was sent to Wellington. One used to tease the other that she was down and under. The other used to tease that his place is so small and gempak je lebih. (still teasing). Still despite their bz schedule, they made time for each other. Often the boy had to listen to the girl's woes and grumbles. Often he had to listen to the girl's rants and sobs especially when she got dumped by his friends. Often he had tried subtly to ask the girl not to date his schoolmates. Often he smashed her heart with his realistic views and opinions. Often the girl would cry after their chatting sessions and found herself agreeing to him.
The friendship is now 8 years of age. Many things had happened along the way, many things have changed. He is still her best friend and she is still his best friend. They both plan to serve those people in the rural areas. He is listed among the top 12 best students in his class. She has 12 boyfriends. Both had succeeded in different areas of their life. He still loves to nag,she still loves to bitch about his school friends. He can't hardly wait to be her childrens' favourite uncle, she can't hardly wait to be his childrens' stylish aunty. Both appreciate the friendship as what it is. This friendship made the girl stronger.. She hopes this friendship will last to the very end. As for now, the girl is praying hard that the boy aces his examination so that the award would be his!

Kecut hati

Kecut hati for me is like kecik hati in B.M. Lately aku byk kecut hati. Kecut hati ni semakin menjadi jadi..tak tau kenape.i chose to write this in B.M. ade certain emotions yang English tak ley describe. Mungken juge mat saleh tak emosi cam aku kot sbab tu derang tak reka la perkataan English yang match ngan what i feel. Kenape ek aku kecut hati? ade due tige sebab aa..antaranye ade org kate lifestyle aku ni mcm tk betul sikett. Hmph. ni bkan isu aku gi clubbing ke ape, tapi pasal family aku. Cemane aku layan ibu bape aku..Org kate aku kasar aa ngan parents aku. Aku just nak clarify, family aku ni bkan cam family korg. We believe in freedom of expression. Sbgai org luar, saye minta janganlah anda judge. Ape kate kita semua hormati masing masing nye care hidup dan cara komunikasi.

Ada juge org yang tak puas hati sebab aku ni byk kawan lelaki. Hmph..aku nak buat camane kan? Ni lagi satu point besar yang aku nak kene make it clear. Kalau saya ni ade 13 ke 30 teman lelaki, saya rasa itu hak saya. Setiap org berbeza. Yelah, maybe la bf saye byk tapi saya tak lah tidur dengan anyone of them. Tidaklah juga saya membuat hati mereka lara kerana saya tingalkan mereka. tak de pon yang fail periksa sebab saye ataupon menjadi pape kedana sebab nak dok melayan saye saje. Semua dah selamat jadi engineer,pharmacist, lecturer. Saye pon selamat je belajar course saya. Mungken juge tak de rezeki. Mungken juge saya begitu adaptable dan boleh belajar sayang org. Satu kelebihan yang Tuhan kasi untuk menerima org seadanye. Mungkin juga Tuhan dah takdirkan saye belajar daripada byk byk lelaki instead of sorg je. I would say that is rezeki la kan.

Byk lagi la yang buat aku kecut hati. tapi itu la two main things yang buat aku super kecut hati. Aritu ade org kate aku emosi, so skang aku kene la hide emo aku tu by tulis kat blog. Emo tu haram weh, aku kene diam je. Org kutuk pon kite kene diam, org maki pon kite kene diam, org nyusah kan kite pon kite kene diam. Sabar jelah...

Nisya Has the Ability to be.............

Nisya has the ability to be............ I had asked this question randomly to a few friends last weekend. The answers were various. The beauty of this survey was that, I now know why and what they feel about me. I can also see obvious patterns in their answers. Their answers were as follows:

1. Nisya has the ability to be gedik sometimes. (Nina). Now Nina is my best friend. In the clan, I am usually the most composed, the one whom everybody believes to be the most serious. However, she also knows that underneath this seriousness, i can be unbelievably gedik. Especially when i start tossing my hair and laughing out like crazy.

2. Nisya has the ability to be super gedik (Jepp). Jepp is a friend.Probably he saw my gedik side once. Overall i would say, he was not taking the question seriously. Probably he was just talking to someone gedik before i asked him. Hence 'gedik' was the first verb that came to mind. (I AM IN DENIAL)

3. Nisya has the ability to make someone happy. (Syore). My exschoolmate, whom has given me the sweetest answer. Despite this, I know she was browsing FACEBOOK..haha

4. Nisya has the ability to be hard working (Kurt). A friend in Wellington, whom saw me working my ass off during summer 2007.

5. Nisya has the ability to be what she wants to be (Sayda). Another friend whom quoted a self help or a motivational book.

6. Nisya has the ability to be sleepy in class the whole time (Nisa K). She sits in front of me in lecture hall most of the time. I think she is deceived by my genetically droopy eyes..(Still In Denial)

7. Nisya has the ability to be a SUPER secretary. (Aishah). I dont have any idea where this comes from. Honestly

8. Nisya has the ability to be confident and to be herself (Ana Shirin). A close friend, whom felt that i can be myself most of the times.

9. Nisya has the ability to be the governer of bank negara (Durra). My ex roomate, who is an avid believer that both of us are in the wrong course. She knows how much i yearn to learn economics.

10. Nisya has the ability to make me confuse. (Dayah Z) ni jawapan jawapan tak bajet.

11. Nisya has the ability to be so emotional (Najiah). Another schoolmate whom was stuck with me during my emo era( adolescence).

12. Nisya has the ability to be the next BN leader for Bangsar area (Derque). Baru ngk berita la tu..

13. Nisya has the abililty to be an established business woman (Vilo) Ye Vilo i hope your statement will come true lah..

In conclusion Nisya can be a super gedik established business woman who can also be the governor of Bank Negara if only she is not ThAT emotional. haha.. What do you guys think?

If Allowance Masuk

My allowance has been delayed for at least 2 months. A bit financially challenged now, I feel the constant need to plan what i would do with the money when i receive them. Many things to buy, many things to do. The list is as follows:

a) Tampal gigi. My mentos fetish has finally shown its effects. As chot (my bestfriend) was saying, "Sebelum ko jadi Flava..baek tampal gigi ko tu.." Total cost, 700 rm.
b) My Bobbi Brown liquid foundation. Have been going out with a few people without barely any make up on..Dangerously showing all my flaws.. Wait until they know about my teeth. Total cost 135 rm
c) The compilation set of Oscar Wilde's novels. He is my fav gay guy after all. Total cost 50 rm
d) The gap jeans which i have been setting my eyes on. Cannot fit into skinny jeans anymore la kan..So have to buy more jeans. Total cost 300, rm.
e) Bali trip. Total cost 1000 rm

My allowance is ciput only. Cannot even support this list. But have to be grateful with what i will be getting. Probably should cut down on a few things on this list. Probably, tampal gigi????

The Important Things That Are Left Unsaid

This morning, I woked up to the beep of my kodi handset. There was an sms from my ex. For the hundreth time he said that he was sorry for what he had done. Point taken encik bebel. Of course, his sms left me distressed the whole day. I wanted to say many things to him but time and ego had prevented me to do so. Hence, after 6 hours of contemplating on writing this blog, I decided to write about what i have longed to say to some people; especially those who used to be part of my life.

To Encik High Order Thinking,

• Sebenarnye i just wanted to say that i called you a lot of times the night before kite break up. I takut nak gi te kotahinga around 6 o'clock alone as it was dark. It was still winter. You didnt pick up. I did not forget you entirely that night. Te kotahinga memang susah nak dapat line.IT WAS VODAFONE!!!!
  

• The part when you smsed me " aku doa kapal terbang ko terhempas." hurts the most. Tak yah doakan aku mati weh..
• I kecik hati you bawak other girl to be your partner during the cultural award night. I was the one who had to put up with your tantrums sepanjang you jadi president OMSA.
  

To Encik Ilmu Ghaib,

• You didnt have to be my boyfriend to ask me to help you with your English. If you were a friend, I would still have given my all to help you with the language.

To my used to be best friend,

• What you did, regardless intentionally or unintentionally, had left a huge scar in my heart. Mak aku kat hospital time tu, and i trusted you to help me. I know from your eyes that you are sorry, but I still need space and time to heal..

To encik nerd,

• I did not mean to hurt you dulu. The breakup was necessary. Your mom hated me. I just wanted to make it clear, I wasnt your friend because of your money. You were caring and that was all that mattered most.
  

To encik bebel,

• Maaf ko takde makne dah bagi aku. Mmg hidup aku f**kup because of you. Aku doakan ko bahagia sebenarnye, walaupon aku cakap je aku tak.haha..ko pon tau kan aku takla jahat mane. Aku hope kite takkan jumpe dah sampai bile bile. Tolong jangan peduli dah pasal aku. Thanks for doing me this enormous favour.

I know, I know. Probably you guys are not encik bebel or encik nerd. You guys can't relate to this. But I think this is neccessary. This will help to me to clear the burden in my heart that i have been carrying for so long. I hope those involved will read this. As for now, one mochachino is very much needed..chowz